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SUNDAY JULY30: INFECTED

 Good morning all,

Today is Sunday, but it is not the end of my weekend. Mondays are off for me too, so there is still time to get my life in order. 

Last Monday I assaulted my ear with a q-tip. There really is no better feeling than scratching that itch, right? Well, turns out I went just a little too crazy with it and gave myself a pretty nasty ear infection. After many worried and fitful texts with my mother, a couple days of uncomfortable agony (it really did hurt, felt like someone was driving nails into my brain.) I went into urgent care and got antibiotics, eardrops, and 300 tablets total of OTC pain killers. For the last four days i've been treating my ear infection. 4 drops 5 times a day, 2 antibiotic pills 3 times a day, 2 ibuprofen and 1 paracetamol every 4 to 6 hours, depending on how bad the pain is. I've been able to sleep again, but I've been getting very behind on work.

Somehow I am not able to feel okay being exhausted and tired with an ear infection. Fever? No. Vomiting? No. Then I should be able to get my ass out of bed and get my work done. I went into studio and painted yesterday for 4 hours. It doesn't feel like enough.  Today I will need to stay up. Get groceries. Go to studio and do my independent studies for Drawing the Body. 

I am sisyphus. My day is the boulder. Small tasks feel like they're being conquered. Why? Maybe because my entire immune system is laboring to try and get this god forsaken ear infection over with and I'm prolonging the healing time by trying to get up and do work even though I don't have the energy. sigh.

Breakfast will be Toast with black currant jam. 
dinner will probably be pasta because thats all that sounds appetizing to me. Maybe some tomatoes if i'm feeling lucky. god, I need vitamins.

Groceries:

-pesto

-chicken

-veggies (the farmers market is today and i can get produce really cheap. we will see if I end up eating any of it. I rotted an apple and 3 oranges last week.)

- another bag of coffee? or a tea flavor...choose your fate.

-curry sauce

-rice?

-new bag of pasta...i wonder if they sell bowtie in NZ.

This week will be better because this ear infection will no longer be a problem. 

Affirmations for the day: I am cool even when I don't feel it.

                                        I will do the tasks I need to do and it will not suck the life from me.


Kind of a dark entry today. clear skies ahead.

-Ellie


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