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SEPT 28: settling in just as it winds down

 thursdays are my day off. This morning consisted of a phone call with my partner overseas, a long shower, 15 minutes of stretching, and a breakfast of bacon, eggs, and toast. 


listened to this Ted-Ed podcast and it has encouraged me to keep stretching every day (I've been stretching every day for a week now and I honestly feel better than I have in weeks.) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g1pb2aK2we4

Also started listening to this podcast recommended by my mother and this episode really drives home why I love the electric kettle so much.  https://open.spotify.com/episode/1yHvx5Jxn09grRxqkfhZeP?si=sl2GZsoMQhK-SQj2cVL3Dw

Anyways, yes. I'm trying to reform my habits so that i can be healthier in all the ways. Ive started having a carrot every day, stretching, meditating, and getting outside at least once. and I feel GREAT! I feel more motivated to do my school work. Yesterday I spent 4 hours painting and I felt like I was back in my Stout studio, surrounded by friends, and feeling like I'm part of something greater. 

I'm comfortable here. I know where things are. I'm happy, thriving even. The sun has been absent for a while now, and this morning it has been peeking bashfully in and out of the clouds. It's warm, and my skin welcomes it. 

So, it takes 3 months to get used to living in a place. I'm comfortable. I'm content. I'm happy. And in 2 months that'll be stripped from me. October 20th is the last day of classes. November 14 is when my parents get here, my partner comes two days after them. we leave Aotearoa on November 29th. The end approaches and I am both terrified and also so unaware.

Am I going to be okay when I get home? That's my biggest worry. Are my friends going to be waiting up for me? They'll have changed and I'm not sure if they'll have room for me in their lives again. My friends here are just starting to let me into theirs, and soon I'll have to exit and leave an Ellie shaped hole here. 


Time. Is. Terrifying. 


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